children- sometimes- know best

So I had to blog about this-

I have really been talking to God, a lot, about the transplant. This morning I had been reading through some of the information the transplant agency had given us. I should not have read it. It immediately put fear in my heart and I began to panic. Panic about Brian, about Brasen and about having to be away from my younger two kids while at the hospital in OKC caring for Brasen and Brian. Information overload at its best.

As I am attempting to read scriptures through my tears and trying to do it quietly while Elijah was sleeping and Alex playing only feet away from me I just couldn't do it. There I sat, tears all over the place and making no progress. Just sitting in fear.

I know that My God has this totally under control but for a split second I let my flesh set in and lost sight of what I know to be true.

Out of no where Alex came to me and asked me to read a book. I was still trying to hide the tears so quickly I wiped them away and turned to read this book with her. How did she know?

The book she brought me was a child's book of the "Dear God Kid's" series. The title of this one was "Dear God, It's me again." The verse was Psalm 55:17~ Evening, and morning and at noon will I pray, and cry aloud and he shall hear my voice."

The page said ".....God loves you more than you'll ever know, and listens every time you call- about anything. You could have kept all your problems to yourself, but you've come to Him instead.....you've come to the right place."

Alex is one who is very motherly and cares so much about people. She is always in tune with what is going on around her and strangely enough she always knows how to respond in an emotionally charged situation. I think God has plans for her to use this special gift He has given her.

Of course she did not know what she was doing today when she handed me the book but God did. I believe that He can use anything to speak to us and today, He spoke to me through a child.

Thank you Alex for letting God use your sweet spirit to speak words of love to your mommy today.